Dreamt that I couldn't find the office of the law firm I am supposed to train at.

Does that mean that I am going to fail my bar exams?

They always say you can stand on the busiest street in the world and still feel horribly alone. That's how I'm feeling now. So alone that my eyes have the urge to spill some tears just to fill up my empty heart. I thought I would have gotten used to it by now but clearly not.

Meh. I don't feel so good these days.

I have been feeling strange random surges near the base of my throat these days. They are particularly frequent when I go jogging or when I eat. Frankly, it scares me. I wonder if there is something wrong with my heart. But I don't dare to see the doctor because I'm afraid there really is something wrong.

Two days ago, I suddenly had a sharp pain at my lower back just above the hips. I think my kidneys were acting up or something because I didn't drink a lot of water. It really scared me and I started gulping down more water. Thankfully the pain subsided somewhat today and I hope it is nothing too serious. Crossing my fingers that there are no kidney stones or anything.

I really hope I'll be alright. *gulps*

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Sometimes you just can't unsee what you've seen.

So, as suggested by the M&S, I did the remove-your-birthday-from-your-facebook-profile thing this year.

And I genuinely glad I did.
That feeling you get when your friends still message you to wish you happy birthday...
irreplaceable.

Ya, I didn't get a hundred and one birthday messages like those on facebook.
But the messages that I've got are from friends that genuinely care enough about me to remember my birthday - sans facebook.

And I know that these are the friends that I want to keep forever.

I don't know what I did to deserve your love...
but thank you for being my friends.

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I never suspect I would lose a friend this way. It's the second time I've lost a good friend so abruptly and painfully.

Sometimes I really wonder if this is the right profession for me. I lack the passion, the ambition and the determination. How the heck am I going to survive? :(

I'm on the verge of losing my self-control. =\\ ah wells

I really really want to scream!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO FRUSTRATING!

I must be PMS-ing. First I feel bitchy... Now I feel insecure. Sucky week.

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